Something that has been weighing on me lately is the question of whether I am following the correct path? I question whether I can become a writer or not or even if I have a desire become a full time writer. More specifically, perhaps I question whether I want to write about anxiety or not. I don’t want to get into the trap of focusing only on the mental illness issues because it is not my desire to work solely with the anxious person long term (though I have intimidate knowledge that can help this group). I am more interested in finding people who are truly willing to make change in their life. Those that can look themselves in the mirror and be real. I would then like to form a niche support group that can be there to guide and assist one another to fulfill their highest dreams and their greatest potentials, despite their personal issues and mental health challenges.
Using Deepak Choprah's method of finding ones purpose, I have narrowed my focus in life. A person starts by asking themselves what they're unique talents Then comes the question of how one can best serve the world and fellowman with those talents.
For me, I will use my strong writing skills and experience with mental illness, business and knowledge to help others with their anxieties, and open their eyes to a healthier and more fulfilling path in life. I will also attempt to help them move towards the life of their dreams. This is something I know I can do.
I have been procrastinating on writing my book because I have been making excuses.
Here is my internal dialogue that followed:
It’s too hard, I don’t know what I’m talking about, I’m not an expert or qualified enough, no one will listen to me, no one will buy my book, there’s too much to write, I don’t know what to put in the book, I hope I don’t get sued or in trouble for using things I've learned from others, I don’t know what I’m talking about, I’m not confident in the material, will it work? will people buy it, I can’t do it, How am I going to make money doing this? Is the material good enough? do I have enough material? I need help. I don’t know if I can do this myself, I don’t know if I can do it, I doubt I can do this, I am not confident in the knowledge I have, I want it to work, Help. I feel stuck, I don’t know what to do, I’m scared to move forward.
What are you scared of? I donno. What am I scared of? Why Can’t I write more? What is holding me back? What is holding me back? Am I not smart enough? I am very smart and am definitely smart enough.
Sometimes you have to getout of your own way and just write and let whatever comes out come out. There is obviously intelligent thoughts inside of you.The world may need them. Just start writing and getting out of your own way. I’m a journalist so at least document everything in my life.
Ramit Sethi an online business coach said just put a product out. Stop waiting to be perfect because you’ll never know that way. And I’ve heard this over and over again which is just test the market get something out there and see if it works and test and improve and eventually a person can figure out how to take steps forward and understand more.
I feel I'm at that point now where I've plateaued and it's time to get serious about this blog and my writing and start impacting people and making a life for myself.
I know I”m going to achieve my vision but it's easy to doubt oneself in day to day life. I just need to keep making small steps forward and goals and strive to keep learning. Writing like this actually feels good which is to just always write what’s alwasy on my mind. I’m doing well everything will be fine. I can do this.