I would just like to say I'm human. My life is full of ups and downs and sideways curves. I struggle with having to write, inspire, and create value in this blog, while still attempting to keep things together in my own life. Having said that, I've made a conscious decision to work on myself over the past year and I would say I'm as happy as ever in all areas of my life. Yet things are not perfect. I'm an emotional guy and perhaps I exacerbate my daily internal conflicts by over-analyzing them, which in my mind should be resigned to daily annoyance status.
One such problem I've had, that I know others contend with, is that I let seemingly small things bother me. Then I'll wallow and stew in that agitation an excessive amount of time. I obsess over minor things, that ideally, I should just let go of and carry on with my day because I know in the grand scheme of things these details aren't going to matter.
Having had a meaningful conversation with a mentor about this topic helped me to put life into perspective. I realize that life is fleeting anyways. It is important to nourish and grow ourselves and the world around us, but at the same time, through out the histories of histories and countless universes it's not going to matter what you or I would have do anyways.
You could take that as a negative and say "...then why should I give a fuck?"
Or you could take it as a sign to lessen the importance we place on those stinging moments in life...to appreciate life in all its glory fun and joy...as well as its losses, hurts and pains.
So then why make such a big deal out of nonsense?
My response is to remind myself that I am human...and this is part of the human condition. I would like to meet the man who doesn't feel frustrated or annoyed in his day to day life regardless of career or status.
An example from my own life is that I beat myself up mentally if things don't go "right". I had been following a new morning routine consistently for almost a month now and I had been feeling great about myself. This past week, I just couldn't get up on time and follow through on the routine. As a result, I was agitated and irritated the whole week and mad at myself. Then when I again could not regroup and continue on with the plan, on the next day I just kept getting madder and irritated with myself the whole week. It was relentless and I couldn't feel joy or confident at all. It was a struggle to get through work and I acted irritably towards my wife.
I couldn't reason it out in my mind as I always try to do. I blamed the weather, switching shifts at work, the full moon, I was mad that I didn't have the energy and that I had too much on my plate...I just kept on overanalyzing and it just left me more exhausted.
I realize now sometimes we just don't feel so hot while other times we will feel invincible. Again we are human. We're imperfect. We're emotional. We're animals and a part of nature. And life is imperfect and full of ups and downs.
Thoughts and emotions will come and go. As a part of a mindfulness and acceptance practice, we must learn that we are not our emotions and thoughts...that we are separate souls from our thoughts, emotions and actions...and that we are whole regardless of what we are experiencing internally from moment to moment.
With regards to those agitating thoughts and feelings...all I can say is let 'em go man...just let 'em go. Peace!